Reading ahead

Have you ever started reading a book and just had to jump to the last chapter and read ahead to see how the story ends? I have a bad habit of doing this with every book that I read. I always want to know how it's going to end before I even really get into the story. That's probably why I love the book of Revelations so much...it tells me exactly how the end is going to be. Don't you sometimes wish we could do this in real life? Find out how our life story will play out? How our decisions or just our life will impact those around us?

I've been thinking about this a lot the past few weeks. Pretty much every since Paige left us for her Heavenly home. I still don't understand why God needed her with him.  I see so many of her close friends and family that are broken, angry and so confused. This is one of those times I wish we could see years down the road to see why this had to happen. Or will we ever truly understand until we get to Heaven ourselves? I know Paige made an impact on so many lives, mine included. I find myself worshiping more freely now. One of my favorite memories of Paige that I will never forget was watching her on Sunday before SWTA. We were on the back row beside the sound system and she was standing in front of it worshiping and singing the songs only to God. She didn't care who was around, she was just worshiping her Father. It brought tears to my eyes, still does.

None of us are guaranteed another breath, we don't know when God will call us home. Am I living each day to bring others to Christ? Am I showing my kids that nothing is more important than God and showing his love, grace and compassion to others? Am I being bold for Christ? Will my life be an example of Christ?

Even though I didn't know Paige as well as others, she has changed my life. I want to be more like her, more like Christ.

So what will my legacy be? What about yours?