My heart is crushed

I know I haven't blogged lately. School has started back & I'm still trying to get back into the "normal" schedule.

I wanted to blog some great things about school, but my heart is breaking right now. I really need your prayers. One of my best friends found out yesterday that her 3 year old daughter has leukemia. They were running tests last night to determine why type she has. Her daughter is a little princess with long flowing hair. She loves her hair, loves dressing up and being totally girlly! I cannot imagine what they are going through right now. They also have 3 other children and my friend is pregnant with their 5th child. She has difficult pregnancies, so please pray for them all, but especially her & her daughter. This came as a total shock to everyone. I googled last night for the symptoms and now see that she had a few of those symptoms over the last few months. Although, those are also normal "kid" symptoms, so no one would have ever thought of something like this.

On a lighter note, today we celebrate my son's 5th birthday. We are so blessed and sometimes when my kids are fighting & just basically getting on each others nerves, I just want to send them to the grandparents! But then when something like this happens, you just want to stop & thank God that you have been so blessed with healthy kids! It's easy to take for granted that we will be here tomorrow and the next, so we put off doing things with our kids or husband. But God never promised us anything past today. However, he did promise that he would never leave us. So I know he is right there with my friends & their family during this illness. Can't you just feel him there with you when you're going thru something bad in your life? But once everything is better, he gets forgotten, put on the shelf again...until the next time. I want to feel him with me every day--good or bad. But just like any relationship, it takes work and time. Reading my bible every day and praising God for the small stuff. When was the last time you thanked God for your job, your home, your car (I'm always grateful when mine cranks up!!) or even the food in your refrigerator?

I know I'm all over the place today, but my mind is so messed up right now worrying about my friends. Thanks so much for your prayers!